There are times I’d think about him and this would bring tears in my eyes. I missed him terribly. I missed his calls. The long talks we always had whenever he would call me.
The times he’d listen to what I have to say on a lot of things about life. But most of all, I missed the way he’d tell me how my music matters to him the most.
You see, there was a time when I contemplated on walking away from music. I wanted to quit for the very fact that I felt, that maybe my passion wasn’t there anymore. I told my dad about my decision to quit.
He laughed at my decision and said that he doesn’t believe me. He told me that music is in your blood, once you have it, its there for good. Overall, he told me never to quit music no matter what.
This conversation took place sometime this early January or was it December I lost track of the exact date.
Since then, I’ve pondered on what to do with my life. When he left last February 24, all my inspirations that came from him apparently died as well.
Lately, I haven’t felt any passion with regards to playing music. It’s as if, someone turned it off with a flicker on the switch.
Right now, I’m sitting here in my work desk, thinking about all the things that he told me a while back.
Maybe in time, I’ll get that passion back. For now, its pure numbness. An empty shell of what was once a passionate musician.
* Here’s a pic that I got from my sister. This was way back 1974 when my dad was still in his early teens.
And here’s something from Boys to Men..to go along with this pic.
GoodBye
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we’d get to see forever
But forever’s gone away
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don’t know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we’ve been
And what we’ve been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it’s worth all the wait
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I’ll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I’ll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
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